Reflection & Peace

It's been two months since we were approved and put online.  It's amazing just how much we have learned in this process.  We have learned it's okay to hope and want.  We have learned it's okay to get excited and want to prepare.  We have learned it can be fun to talk about names, sexes, and parenting.
All of these things used to cause us immense pain.  Each new month that would pass and we would wait and wait for the inevitable not pregnant again we sunk into a deep abyss of pain.  Each day that we have filled our hearts with hope for the miracles of adoption we have been able to climb two steps out of our abyss.  We are finding the joy in the process.  We look forward to meeting our little one.  We look forward to laughing and loving our little one.  We look forward to gathering our families and sharing our special little miracle.  We look forward to sleepless nights and dirty diapers.  We look forward to challenges.  We look forward to new friends we might meet along the way.
It's impossible to describe just how I feel about adoption at this point in my life.  I am overwhelmed in the knowledge and certainty that it is the absolutely right thing to do.  Whether it takes months or years and whether we are blessed with our own biological children or not, I know this path is a path we will take in our lifetime as our hearts have been completely filled with the love and the spirit of adoption.  I only wish this was a process that everyone could partake in so that they could feel and understand the wonderful sweet spirit and see the selfless acts taking place.