Memories! Part two...

In Salt Lake I could go on forever with the memories that roll through my head. First kisses with a great guy behind a bush so his mom and dad wouldn't see, long term boyfriends from ninth grade through senior year, high school, learning to drive and turning sixteen on the same day my brother is having an emergency appendicitis surgery, the dances, and especially graduation and the heat and the boredom that came with that ceremony! Oh the wonderful drama, I wouldn't do it again, but I loved those days. Mostly let me dwell on the fact that there were some great times, but some really awful times as well. Graduation was wonderful because I did it! I graduated and with honors, which is all I ever wanted in my life. I wish I would have done more in school; however, to be everything and more. (Like AP Calculus that Mrs. Croft told me I couldn't take because I wasn't smart enough) Granted this is coming from a 3.9 GPA student, but it wasn't enough to satisfy my dreams in college and with scholarships either.

When I was barely eighteen and still in high school I moved out into my own apartment with my good friend Beki. We had a lot of life experiences there. Paying rent was harder than either of us would have imagined. Working while trying to go to school full-time quickly became obvious to me wasn't possible at eighteen years old. Five days after turning nineteen I moved back home to live with Mom and Dad, to St. Anthony, Idaho. Beki and I had a falling out after that and the tragedy of the whole situation is that if I had to go back and do it all again, I would still move. That was my saving point in my life and for that, this is where I will tell you my life really started.

I had a really terrible dating life at this time and an ex-boyfriend, who I wanted to be with, but didn't want to be with me, who kept popping in and out of the picture making it only harder for me to move on. I had one guy who I let stand me up ten times before I realized how badly it was getting to me, another I went on a date with and paid for dinner, (he paid for the movie) and then dropped me off at his best friend's house in Idaho Falls and drove off into the night, no thank you or goodbye! (Luckily I had driven my own car to IF but know that had I needed a ride home Lacey would have helped me out. Love you Lacey and miss you too!) We never saw each other again until we were both engaged to someone else.