One not Both

Shane and I tried to buy a house. We really wanted a house. We started having minor setbacks along the way in just the first few days. The houses we liked were jumping off the market, and the finances weren't matching up. We were looking in our budget one day and way outside our budget the next. Unfortunately it was no one's fault (which would of course make the whole disappointment a little easier to bear if we could blame someone) but Shane and I started feeling like we were jumping through hoops. We really would love to have a home. We would really love to escape our crappy apartment. We really would love to finally feel like we are progressing. Well on Tuesday night, Shane and I started talking and praying that if we continued to come across hurdles that we'd know what to do. Wednesday brought on a whole new set of disappointments. Our agent was great, she kept us motivated and happy. We went and looked at a home and felt positive. Then Thursday there was another set back. Lisa told us that buying a house wasn't for the weak in heart and we kept trying to stay positive, but something just didn't sit well with us. We prayed again, all morning in fact and spent our entire lunch hour debating and talking. We finally came to the conclusion that we can have one but not both, the house or a baby. Shane and I knew instantly that a baby was much more of a focus for us right now and that we could take a baby with us in the eternities but not a house. We really looked forward to taking advantage of the tax credit, but realize that a house isn't in our cards right now. Because of this, we dropped off our application and money for the adoption today! There is officially no turning back and we have never felt better. We will be homeowners someday, but we get to be parents first.